DAD IS BACK…BUT…
Dad arrived from Dubai here in Manila last April 12 at 10:00 pm. I was so excited to see him again and I can’t wait to spend time with him. When I fetched him at the airport I couldn’t believe what I saw. I tried to hide my tears but my tears just kept on flowing. I am used to seeing my dad strong and powerful that when you see him his aura is intimidating already. But at the airport, my dad seemed so different. Just different. He was in wheelchair and he had to use crutches to support his knees in order to walk. Due to his difficulty in walking, dad said that he couldn’t come to my recognition day because of the venue. I just wished that he would be there during my graduation. The next day, April 13, my dad was confined at Makati Medical Center here in Makati wherein his doctor is based. Seeing my dad seemed helpless made me weak and poignant. I couldn’t bear seeing my dad like this. But I have to be strong for my siblings.
When I went to the hospital yesterday afternoon, my dad and I had a heart to heart talk. He was not mad at all when I flunked the law entrance exams. He said that it was a good thing that I was able to experience those failures because it would help me how to accept defeat and become more mature as a person. Dad said that he has always been proud of me and my brother. His words made me realize that I shouldn’t be disappointed and continue to dream. Dad also said that we will continue to pursue our dreams no matter what.
In my dad’s present condition it amazes me that his spirit is still high and is very optimistic. He is very determined and strong-willed to be healed and become well again. Dad’s dreams for us, his kids, encouraged him to fight his condition and to undergo treatment no matter how painful it is. He said that he still has so many dreams and plans for us and other people that he wants to fulfill. My dad is so strong and became a better person.
This morning, dad underwent a procedure known as lumbar. He was pricked by a needle in his spine to get fluid samples. This would determine his sickness. After few minutes, the finding was he has multiple sclerosis. It is a sickness in the nerves wherein some of dad’s nerves had hardened causing him to have difficulty in walking. It made his knees weak and numb at times. According to doctors, we need a minimum of 450k for the procedure excluding doctors’ fee, medicine and hospital accommodation. Dad has to undergo 5 procedures causing 90k each. That is the cheapest. In total, we need a minimum of 500k-1m for his treatment. But doctors assured dad/us that he would be healed.
When I heard it I cried. I am deeply worried for my dad and my siblings. I hugged my dad in bed. My tears were pouring out. He comforted me and said that everything will be okay. His current illness is not critical compared to his aneurism in 1999 wherein he had a 50/50 chance. Dad said that I must be strong and he is not worried at all because he knows that he would be cured. The problem right now is where to get that big amount of money. My mom and dad were talking on where to get that kind of money and other alternatives possible for dad’s treatment.
As of now, I’m still here in the hospital taking care of my dad and hoping that everything would be okay. I am praying that he would get well soon before leaving this end of April in order to continue working in Dubai.
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IF YOU GUYS ARE WONDERING HOW COME THE DATE OF MY PREVIOUS POSTS ARE ALL THE SAME..SYEMPRE I DID THEM ALL AT THE SAME DATE THROUGH MY BROTHER’S COMPUTER WHILE STAYING WITH MY DAD HERE AT THE HOSPITAL (MAKATI MEDICAL CENTER). WALA NA KASI AKONG MAGAWA. MAY WI-FI DIN DITO SA 9TH FLOOR KASO MAY BAYAD.
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THINGS I WANT TO DO THIS SUMMER (4/14/07)
Summer is now here…super init na nga eh and I almost had a heatstroke yesterday (April 13). Malapit na rin ang graduation and recognition. Kaya ngayon, I am gonna list down all the things I want to do this summer.
1. Spend time with my dad
- he’s in the hospital right now for medication and I miss him so much.
2. Outing!!!
- pinayagan na ako ng dad ko kaya wala ng magagawa si mommy. Yipee!!!
3. Job hunt
- ooh…fun fun fun…have to find the perfect work for me.
4. Start Working
- ayan, ‘pag may nahanap na akong work, sana makapgsimula na ako sa mid-may.
5. Celebrate my debut (21 at 21) kiddie party style
- I’ll be turning 21 this coming May 21 and I want it to be like a kiddie party. Plan ko nga sa Mcdo or sa Jabee.
6. Read read and read
-natapos ko na ang mga libro ko sa bahay kaya eto bumibili na naman ako ng mga panibagong mga libro. Sinisimulan ko ito sa pamamagitan ng pagbabasa ng Memoirs of my Melancholy Whores.
7. Magpa-connect ng broadband, DSL or Smart Bro
- first step ito para lagi akong updated sa internet and siyempre para maayos ko na ang blog ko. Hehehe..mas tipid din para sa akin (nacalculate ko na ang gastos).
8. Ayusin at laging i-update ang blog
- dahil ito sa impluwensya ni nea pati na rin ng ibang kaibigan ko (Pebi, Miguel at Jerick).
9. mamili ng mga corporate attire
- love love love. Dapat talagang mag-shopping ng damit para sa work.
10. Spend time with friends, sisses and people I love
- namimiss ko na silang lahat at gusto kong makabawi sa kanila ngayong bakasyon dahil nagging toxic ako noong mga nakaraang buwan/taon.
11. Visit my grandparents, cousins and relatives in laguna
- miss ko na sila pati ang lugar naming sa laguna kung saan tahimik at masarap ang simoy ng hangin dahil walang pollution.
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AGE ISN’T HOW OLD YOU ARE BUT HOW OLD YOU FEEL…(4/14/07)
I’ve been reading this book by Gabriel Garcia Marquez entitled Memoirs of my Melancholy Whores for weeks already. If I was reading it continuously, then I could finish the book for about two-three hours since it the novel has 140 something pages only. Memoirs of my Melancholy Whores is about an old man who is celebrating his ninetieth birthday. For his birthday celebration, he decided to call the owner of a prostitution house, Rosa Cabarcas, to hire a virgin lady. He never got married and at his age, he is still working as a columnist for a newspaper in Mexico. He named his birthday gift Delgadina, a 14 year old virgin girl who is always tired because of work in a factory and in her home.
In the book, the old man (his name was never mentioned) said that Age isn’t how old you are but how old you feel. I have theorized two meanings for this saying.
First, the saying could pertain to the age itself. This made me think at my present stage. I’ll be turning 21 next month (May 21) and I’ll be graduating in college next week (April 24). Thinking about my age makes me feel I’m getting old already. People say I look too young for my age and they couldn’t believe how old I am whenever I tell them my real age. But still, until now I feel like I am a teen-ager. There are so many things that I still want to do. And being a teen-ager is a lot’a fun! At the age of 20 turning 21, my mindset is that I am not that old and I haven’t had my debut yet. Kc daw lalaki ako kaya 21 pa ang debut ko. Anyway, what the old guy said is totally true. If you feel that you are still young then you would look young and would not care how old you are.
Second, the saying could also mean that love comes anytime no matter how old or young you are. This message was clearly depicted in the book when the old guy fell in love with the 14 year old girl at the age of 90. When you’re in love, age doesn’t really matter. What matter is your intimate feeling towards the person. And when you are in love, you feel like you’re young and lively. Eweness, I’m so mushy! But its true. I believe in it though.
Anyway, people should read Memoirs of my Melancholy Whores and you’ll learn a lot of things about life and love. I haven’t finished the book yet but it made me understand stuffs.
Dad arrived from Dubai here in Manila last April 12 at 10:00 pm. I was so excited to see him again and I can’t wait to spend time with him. When I fetched him at the airport I couldn’t believe what I saw. I tried to hide my tears but my tears just kept on flowing. I am used to seeing my dad strong and powerful that when you see him his aura is intimidating already. But at the airport, my dad seemed so different. Just different. He was in wheelchair and he had to use crutches to support his knees in order to walk. Due to his difficulty in walking, dad said that he couldn’t come to my recognition day because of the venue. I just wished that he would be there during my graduation. The next day, April 13, my dad was confined at Makati Medical Center here in Makati wherein his doctor is based. Seeing my dad seemed helpless made me weak and poignant. I couldn’t bear seeing my dad like this. But I have to be strong for my siblings.
When I went to the hospital yesterday afternoon, my dad and I had a heart to heart talk. He was not mad at all when I flunked the law entrance exams. He said that it was a good thing that I was able to experience those failures because it would help me how to accept defeat and become more mature as a person. Dad said that he has always been proud of me and my brother. His words made me realize that I shouldn’t be disappointed and continue to dream. Dad also said that we will continue to pursue our dreams no matter what.
In my dad’s present condition it amazes me that his spirit is still high and is very optimistic. He is very determined and strong-willed to be healed and become well again. Dad’s dreams for us, his kids, encouraged him to fight his condition and to undergo treatment no matter how painful it is. He said that he still has so many dreams and plans for us and other people that he wants to fulfill. My dad is so strong and became a better person.
This morning, dad underwent a procedure known as lumbar. He was pricked by a needle in his spine to get fluid samples. This would determine his sickness. After few minutes, the finding was he has multiple sclerosis. It is a sickness in the nerves wherein some of dad’s nerves had hardened causing him to have difficulty in walking. It made his knees weak and numb at times. According to doctors, we need a minimum of 450k for the procedure excluding doctors’ fee, medicine and hospital accommodation. Dad has to undergo 5 procedures causing 90k each. That is the cheapest. In total, we need a minimum of 500k-1m for his treatment. But doctors assured dad/us that he would be healed.
When I heard it I cried. I am deeply worried for my dad and my siblings. I hugged my dad in bed. My tears were pouring out. He comforted me and said that everything will be okay. His current illness is not critical compared to his aneurism in 1999 wherein he had a 50/50 chance. Dad said that I must be strong and he is not worried at all because he knows that he would be cured. The problem right now is where to get that big amount of money. My mom and dad were talking on where to get that kind of money and other alternatives possible for dad’s treatment.
As of now, I’m still here in the hospital taking care of my dad and hoping that everything would be okay. I am praying that he would get well soon before leaving this end of April in order to continue working in Dubai.
______________________________________________________________
IF YOU GUYS ARE WONDERING HOW COME THE DATE OF MY PREVIOUS POSTS ARE ALL THE SAME..SYEMPRE I DID THEM ALL AT THE SAME DATE THROUGH MY BROTHER’S COMPUTER WHILE STAYING WITH MY DAD HERE AT THE HOSPITAL (MAKATI MEDICAL CENTER). WALA NA KASI AKONG MAGAWA. MAY WI-FI DIN DITO SA 9TH FLOOR KASO MAY BAYAD.
______________________________________________________________
THINGS I WANT TO DO THIS SUMMER (4/14/07)
Summer is now here…super init na nga eh and I almost had a heatstroke yesterday (April 13). Malapit na rin ang graduation and recognition. Kaya ngayon, I am gonna list down all the things I want to do this summer.
1. Spend time with my dad
- he’s in the hospital right now for medication and I miss him so much.
2. Outing!!!
- pinayagan na ako ng dad ko kaya wala ng magagawa si mommy. Yipee!!!
3. Job hunt
- ooh…fun fun fun…have to find the perfect work for me.
4. Start Working
- ayan, ‘pag may nahanap na akong work, sana makapgsimula na ako sa mid-may.
5. Celebrate my debut (21 at 21) kiddie party style
- I’ll be turning 21 this coming May 21 and I want it to be like a kiddie party. Plan ko nga sa Mcdo or sa Jabee.
6. Read read and read
-natapos ko na ang mga libro ko sa bahay kaya eto bumibili na naman ako ng mga panibagong mga libro. Sinisimulan ko ito sa pamamagitan ng pagbabasa ng Memoirs of my Melancholy Whores.
7. Magpa-connect ng broadband, DSL or Smart Bro
- first step ito para lagi akong updated sa internet and siyempre para maayos ko na ang blog ko. Hehehe..mas tipid din para sa akin (nacalculate ko na ang gastos).
8. Ayusin at laging i-update ang blog
- dahil ito sa impluwensya ni nea pati na rin ng ibang kaibigan ko (Pebi, Miguel at Jerick).
9. mamili ng mga corporate attire
- love love love. Dapat talagang mag-shopping ng damit para sa work.
10. Spend time with friends, sisses and people I love
- namimiss ko na silang lahat at gusto kong makabawi sa kanila ngayong bakasyon dahil nagging toxic ako noong mga nakaraang buwan/taon.
11. Visit my grandparents, cousins and relatives in laguna
- miss ko na sila pati ang lugar naming sa laguna kung saan tahimik at masarap ang simoy ng hangin dahil walang pollution.
______________________________________________________
AGE ISN’T HOW OLD YOU ARE BUT HOW OLD YOU FEEL…(4/14/07)
I’ve been reading this book by Gabriel Garcia Marquez entitled Memoirs of my Melancholy Whores for weeks already. If I was reading it continuously, then I could finish the book for about two-three hours since it the novel has 140 something pages only. Memoirs of my Melancholy Whores is about an old man who is celebrating his ninetieth birthday. For his birthday celebration, he decided to call the owner of a prostitution house, Rosa Cabarcas, to hire a virgin lady. He never got married and at his age, he is still working as a columnist for a newspaper in Mexico. He named his birthday gift Delgadina, a 14 year old virgin girl who is always tired because of work in a factory and in her home.
In the book, the old man (his name was never mentioned) said that Age isn’t how old you are but how old you feel. I have theorized two meanings for this saying.
First, the saying could pertain to the age itself. This made me think at my present stage. I’ll be turning 21 next month (May 21) and I’ll be graduating in college next week (April 24). Thinking about my age makes me feel I’m getting old already. People say I look too young for my age and they couldn’t believe how old I am whenever I tell them my real age. But still, until now I feel like I am a teen-ager. There are so many things that I still want to do. And being a teen-ager is a lot’a fun! At the age of 20 turning 21, my mindset is that I am not that old and I haven’t had my debut yet. Kc daw lalaki ako kaya 21 pa ang debut ko. Anyway, what the old guy said is totally true. If you feel that you are still young then you would look young and would not care how old you are.
Second, the saying could also mean that love comes anytime no matter how old or young you are. This message was clearly depicted in the book when the old guy fell in love with the 14 year old girl at the age of 90. When you’re in love, age doesn’t really matter. What matter is your intimate feeling towards the person. And when you are in love, you feel like you’re young and lively. Eweness, I’m so mushy! But its true. I believe in it though.
Anyway, people should read Memoirs of my Melancholy Whores and you’ll learn a lot of things about life and love. I haven’t finished the book yet but it made me understand stuffs.
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